I just posted a cluster of videos on Instagram captioned with a note about how I used to spit practically all of Tha Carter III back in high school when I barely spoke the English language. It just occurred to me that the artist we were arguing about in the car, on our way to the desert, was none other than Lil Wayne. How utterly ridiculous is that… You know, that trip I mentioned, planned with the intent to celebrate our wedding, my birthday, as well as a favorable settlement I had been granted by the court, that trip I initiated and paid for, the one which resulted in a dislocated left middle finger and a getaway spent in separate rooms, yep - that’s the one. It was around this time of the year too… I was just taken back to that time, earlier today, thinking of that record. Another thing I noted is that I had recalled the event has having happened around my 30th birthday while it occurred prior to that year. My timelines got switched up in the psychic back and forth and I have to correct that because it was actually a couple of years ago. Not that we did anything to celebrate the occasion when I turned 30 years old. Different but same. I didn’t get a present. Very minimal attention. No thoughtfulness. No love. When I turned 30 I got a birthday wish card with a pre-written note and a signature. By then, he wasn’t even trying and it showed. Will this devil ever get off my back - can he be shaken off completely? Looking forward to the days when I don’t have at least one recurring and prolonged thought about that slice of time in my life - not the sweetest.

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GOD YOU ARE SO GOOD

Thank you for purpose
Thank you for clarity
Thank you for acceptance
Thank you for opportunities
Thank you for an open heart
Thank you for truth
Thank you for gratitude
Thank you for peace of mind
Thank you for authenticity
Thank you for compassion
Thank you for understanding
Thank you for goodwill
Thank you for mercy
Thank you for grief
Thank you for pain
Thank you for madness
Thank you for shelter
Thank you for nourishment
Thank you for clothing
Thank you for getting me by
Thank you for all that has occurred
Thank you for all that is unfolding
Thank you for all that is coming my way

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On this day, I humbly transmit my fears, hurts, doubts, torments, and worries over to you my dearest angels, guides, beloved ancestors and ascended masters
so that they can be divinely transmuted for the greater good and healed on my behalf. I thank you for your benevolence and precious guidance, which has saved me countless times; from myself and others. I shall move on this physical plane of existence without worries.

#DivinelyGuided #DivinelyProtected #ThankYouMorePlease

My life has absolutely become an ode to myself and I am here for it all - more invested in speaking from the heart than having people feel comfortable around me.

#Unadulterated #RadicalHonesty #AlwaysBeenRisky #ThankYouMorePlease